**Oftentimes I start a post like this, write for 45 minutes, delete everything, try and focus on my real article, and end up not publishing anything at all. Right now I post too rarely for those sort of shenanigans.**
Although I am an Athiest, my mom has a most-annoying habit of referring to me and Darling as "the best Christians she knows." It annoys me because the traits she associates with Christianity are, to my mind, HUMAN traits, which can be shared by any person of any religion. Of course she's my Mom and I love her and refrain from putting undue stress on my Christian family members, because they care about my soul and that's sweet, so I don't argue the point.
I was humbled when the woman co-leading the beautiful Shabbat ceremony I attended two weeks ago, and with whom I have been acquainted for some weeks now, told us the story of her own faith and mentioned that my husband and I fit the bill to be a very good Jewish couple.
I was downright giddy when one of the monks we're staying with referred to what Darling and I are doing as "preaching." In my liberal life, "preach" is a bad word. But the brother told us how St. Francis and his posse would go sit on a hill with the people, and then leave, and the brothers would ask, "why didn't we preach," and Frank said, "we just did."
Some Catholic stories have a lot in common with Buddhist koans, by the way.
One of my new friends said my practice of Atheism is very similar to her practice of Quakerism. Same beat, different drummer. I guess a major difference is that I don't mind what happens after the concert.
I've heard the critique that atheists are very pretentious. I was once asked, "How can you to think that
this is it?" The implication is that I think that we humans are born, grow up, get old, and die. The implication is that
this is a terrible trial we are put through, fraught with temptations and doomed to Armageddon.
I find it agonizingly pretentious that
THIS isn't enough for most people. And
this is everything, and it is beautiful.
This is only happening once, right now. And when it's over, something else will be happening. Right now there are desert skies full of stars, maple syrup on pancakes, newborn babies, dolphins, fresh-brewed coffee and chocolate chip cookies, massive and steep hills you can ride your bike down and feel like you're flying, a hundred thousand amazing books waiting to be read, deep caves you can enter and hear total silence, turn on a lantern and see beautiful formations a half mile underground, hotels at which you can take a shower and watch cartoon network all night, warm fuzzy hats, deep snowdrifts, warm fires...I don't need to believe in something
other, there is to much in
this that I can't even begin to take in.
And yeah, there's a lot in the world that is absolutely wretched. There is rape. A lot of rape. There is murder. There is terrible, terrible injustice. There is slavery. There are natural disasters that take millions out of their homes and lives are never the same. There is drought and starvation. There is a desperation that I have witnessed on the road that is very basic and terrible. There are women evicted this August with small children who have nowhere to go, no one to help them, and it will snow any week now. There are young boys killing on the streets - the streets I've taken to walking - for a hundred bucks. There are generations of boys in prison. There are generations of boys in the military. I'm neither blind nor stupid. And I still say, for them and me, that
this is enough.
Suffering is something I would like to be eradicated. I do not think that suffering is written into the book of Man by any omnipresent being of any conception, and should not be taken for granted. I think that when we take responsibility for suffering, we become powerful enough to ease it.
I also think that global peace is possible. Writing that last bit makes me cringe a little, but I can't tell you how many people I know who honestly think that immortality is possible, in a literal sense. That is one thing I neither want nor expect to come of humanity's progress. I find the life cycle to be a simple, predictable, and beautiful thing. Let me live long enough to grow old, and I'll do my best to be satisfied when the last breath comes.